So, I have a very bad habit of telling God, I have a very bad habit of telling God what I can’t do. I promise you, at least once a week I am telling Him what I can’t do, and God has a habit of telling me what I can do and how to do it.
Just recently I came home from a busy day of work and my house looked just like it looked when I left. You would have thought that my husband didn’t have the whole day off. I walked in my room kicked off my shoes, took a few deep breaths and changed my clothes. Sat down and talked to my son for a few minutes and then took him to his interview and went to the grocery store. After doing all this, there was still nothing moved in the house. So here I go, meal prepping, cleaning up the kitchen, cooking dinner for the family, all the while my husband sits there.
When I am done with all this, I go back in my room and sit on my bed and tell God I can’t do this. I just can’t. I know my husband is going through something right now, Lord what do you want from me because this is just too much. Now this is where it gets funny, I once heard that if you want to make God laugh tell him what you gone do. Well, when I laid down to finally go to bed, something in my spirit said, “love is kind.” I know this is a bible verse, I’ve heard it before. I pick up my phone and google “love is kind” (I am still finding my way through the bible) and google tells me where to find the scripture and I open my bible app and I read it.
Clear as day, I am being told how I can do it and how I should do it.
Alright God, I hear you.
This is just one time, but I can look back and tell you about so many more
Me: God I can’t pay tithes, if I do, I’ll miss a bill, and something will get disconnected or it will reflect negatively on my credit report.
God: Try me (Malachi 3:10)
Me: God I can’t keep living like this, my finances are a mess, how will I ever be able to buy a home.
God: I will meet all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
Me: God I wrote the book, but I can’t afford to publish it, what if no one buys it and then all the money and time I put into it is gone to waste.
God: Write the vision and make it plain (Habakkuk 2:2-3)
These are real conversations that I have had with God in my time of discouragement and lack of faith. It is not easy trusting that everything will work out, it is not easy letting go of your circumstances and trusting that God has the power to work it out. Walking by faith is hard, being grateful for the things that you cannot see is even harder. God know we are human, and He knows that our feelings will sometimes win the battle, but I know that God has an answer for everything we are going through and everything we face.
So, when you feel like you can’t do something, know that with God you can do all things. Try Him for yourself.