Day 15: I am forgiven.
I am forgiven? What exactly I am forgiven for? Everything!
We often carry around all this baggage, all the negative things that we did in life, or all the negative things that happened to us because we don’t know we are forgiven. This baggage is heavy but it doesn’t set in just how heavy it is because we have been carrying it around for so long. Let it go, you are forgiven.
It is important to understand that one of the prerequisite for forgiveness is to forgive. It is an absolute must that you; one forgive others and two forgive yourself. I understanding forgiving others is hard; they don’t deserve it, they didn’t ask for it, and you aren’t ready to forgive. I am telling you the hardest thing I ever had to do was forgive someone who didn’t ask for my forgiveness, who didn’t deserve it, and who I wasn’t ready to forgive.
It was hard but it was necessary. What was done to me was unforgivable in my eyes but I knew in order for me to heal and get pass it I had to forgive. I also knew I couldn’t pray for forgiveness for my transgression and I still carried around all this unforgiveness. I had to realize forgiveness was for me not for them, it was for my salvation.
I took time to forgive, I wrote down everyone who hurt me, everyone who I thought wronged me and I forgave them. Yes, I been through somethings but I made up my mind to stop letting these things define me. These things that happened to me stopped me from showing my children how much I loved them, it stopped me from trusting people, and it stopped me from growing. Growth is important.
I got tired of living my life in this bubble, afraid of what might happen. I prayed for strength to forgive and I forgave and you know what it felt good! The load was released I gave something that I so desperately needed and that was forgiveness. I needed to know that I was forgiven, I am a sinner, I need forgiveness so I forgave. As hard as it was, I forgave and now I am forgiven. Now when I say, “forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors” (Matthew 6:12) I know my debts are forgiven. I am forgiven.
As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. -Psalm 103:12-