Day 7: I Am Willing
Before I move further into this “I Am” challenge I feel there is one “I Am” that really needs to be addressed. I am willing is a very important statement because if I am not willing then I am just wasting my time.
There have been things that I wanted to do or things that I wanted to attempt but I just wasn’t willing to get over something or get pass something to do it. For the last past year, I really wanted to lose some weight, I knew my weight gain had gotten out of hand when every pair of pants I tried on was too tight. I was constantly buying new clothes. When I got out the military in August of 2014 I was 160 pounds, by 2017 I was 209 pounds. In my whole life I had never been this heavy.
I tried to lose weight on many occasions and all were unsuccessful. I would start dieting, working out, drinking water, and doing all the other many things I read about on Pinterest but the attempt only lasted for about a week or two. I wasn’t willing to give up the sodas, the ice cream, the fried fish, the chips, the candy, or the cookies. I also wasn’t willing to give up the fast food or the fried catfish. Boy was the catfish my favorite I could literally eat it every day. Needless to say, three years of trying to lose weight was a total waste of time and money.
Recently I was walking to my car after work and I almost had to stop because I was completely out of breath, this had never happened to me before. I am usually very active and I can walk for hours. This is the day I knew I had to make some changes. I had to be willing to make the changes needed for me to get back to a healthy weight. This is what I call my day one. This was a Monday.
On Tuesday I prepared myself to go on a liquid diet, this was my way of shocking my body. I did just green smoothies for five days and then I started incorporating one meal a day, this went on another five days. When my family would get food from restaurants I would not order, this was hard at first but for once I was willing.
I have been on this new path for a little over four weeks now and it hasn’t been easy. What changed and why I am successful now is that I didn’t take one huge drastic step I made small changes overtime, I changed my diet first, then I gave up my favorite drink, Nos (the energy drink), then I started exercising, and then I stopped drinking my other favorite drink, Moscato, every night.
It is important to understand that sometimes we are unwilling because we fear how much we have to lose, not looking at all that we have to gain. Look at the whole picture and break it down into steps, take one step at a time do not try to conquer the whole mountain in one gigantic leap, you will not succeed. So, what are you looking at and it just doesn’t seem possible? Break it down and then write it down starting with I am willing. It should look like this:
- I am willing to lose weight
- I am willing to stop drinking energy drinks every day.
- I am willing to workout at least three day a week.
- I am willing to change!
Once you do this read back over it and take the first necessary step, take another, and take another. With each step you take the journey you are on will be come easier.